Pod FeedI’ve been trying to get to the why of my addictions. Why did I self sabotage for so many years? Why didn’t I love myself enough to get and stay sober and instead ingested and smoked copious amounts of poison? Where was the love for myself that I easily showed
When I was growing up, I saw so many images romanticizing and glamorizing alcohol. I just knew when I grew up, I’d be able to drink. And I’d be sooo worldly and charming and cosmopolitan. I grew up. I embraced and celebrated happy hour and wine with dinner and girls
I never wanted to make waves…until I was drunk. I couldn’t stand confrontation and avoided uncomfortable situations at all costs. My anxiety and addiction helped me to become the best avoidant ever. If it was fight or flight, I’d take flight, thank you very much. On the flip, I’d look
