I wish I had a crystal ball to see into the future back when I was afraid to quit drinking. I stayed in the cups far too long thinking that I’d be missing out on life if I got sober. I had no idea that the life I was living was the life of purgatory. It consumed my mind – the thought of how am I going to have any fun if I’m not drinking at certain events? How will I go to parties, concerts, weddings? How will I get through a first date without a v and t? How will I relax at the end of a hard day of work? Years ago a good friend moved to the beach town where I lived. We had all sorts of plans to do things together once she moved there. We never did any of them. I saw her a few months ago and said I can’t believe we never hung out when you lived in Carolina Beach… what happened? She said, “I tried a bunch of times, you were always too hungover”. It hit me hard. I remembered those calls and texts and telling her I couldn’t hang. At least I told HER the truth, that I was too hungover. Most people would’ve gotten some bullshit excuse even though they could see right through me. I don’t miss out on anything by being sober. I get to do whatever I want, whenever I want to – as long as I don’t pick up a drink and fuck it all up. Happy Wednesday, sober family. Keep it simple today.
January 6, 2021